hi

XD hi just a change in topic...


wow for once i haf nothing to do/dont know what to do!!!!

ahh! lol


done reading FB...wondering what my next obession will be *snicker snicker* read blackcat first chapter but wasnt TOO interested.....

=)

ne suggestions?!

decided to post this...wat do u guys think? is it good? can u believe i wrote it years ago? XD

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He sits in a sheltered room (sheltered because it’s dark), plain and simple with a dresser, a bed, a mirror and white teddy bear on a chair in a corner. Rain beats on the window, the curtain open, letting in streetlight from the city below; so deep that the rain disappears into its gaps. His hands tremble on his lap, pale from lack of light, but copper coloured by nature, his eyes stare at them, looking not at their scars, but at what caused them. His eyes are dark and soft, a brown that would once before been comfort, but now only allowed others to look at with pity. His hair is messed up and even darker then it normally is because of the night, cut just above his ears, but in a style most 17-yr olds wear. He is only wearing pants, as he had been sleeping, the covers unordered and havocked. Dreams taunt his mind every hour, as illusions leap into his vision during day and night.
How do I know this? Because I’d spent enough time watching him, practically since his childhood, when it all started. Who am I? I wonder if that really matters, as I’m not even sure myself. All I know is that I think, feel, and follow this kid everywhere he goes. I had dumped my identity long ago, and I bet right now you’re wondering if this story is about me, or the guy on the bed I’m describing. Let me give you a visual: I’m the bear on the chair. All white and cuddly, with a red ribbon around my head and dress, brown crystal eyes and a button nose that if you ask me sticks out too far and a mouth that never opens; oh yeah, hell of a life. But I did my job, I watched him like I was supposed to, comfort him as he squeezed me tight. Sometimes, especially during that time, I wondered if he could just be a man and find a whore to cuddle with throughout the night, but then I remembered the shit he had gone through and thought that a one-night stand wasn’t what he needed. He needed a teddy bear. And I was his teddy bear.

Let me start from the beginning, as I find it more interesting to start from there and I’m sure you’d understand a heck of a lot more if that’s where I started. It was…around the year when the Earth Alliance (E.A) was in its peak of power, uniting the Home (Earth) and its ‘commonwealth’, which included space stations and colonized hunks of rock as far as the solar system Dorian’s Plain (and that’s far, dude). There were five solar systems in total, including the Milky Way. You could imagine that many colonized stations that were far felt very separate from the Earth Alliance, and frankly, no officials usually went places as far as Dorian’s Plain (about once every five years), so the people had a lot of freedom to do whatever they wanted. Dorian (as everyone referred to Dorian’s Plain as) became the starting point for a new race of humans, on a planet called, EreYereEs, or otherwise known as, “EYE”, the name in itself proved that this planet was becoming very ‘alien’. But who could blame them? They had completely different resources from the solar systems closer to the Home, mainly because of the fact that the E.A. didn’t send any supplies, or information about the alliance to the Dorian solar system.
Well, the Earth Alliance did blame them, especially when the discovery of ‘aliens’ did come to being: the Aertrez. By nature, (as I presume anyone would think) the Aertrez believed humans to be greedy whinemps (which was their word for what humans might call pigs) and demanded that they stopped colonizing because they had enough space taken up as it was (too true, dude.) The alien group also wanted to start colonizing on hunks of rock that were already occupied by humans, not planning to kick them out. That seemed reasonable, except the E.A didn’t agree with that, (they didn’t even like EYE) and in effect a war started. EYE didn’t want to take part in the war and they found that this was a great opportunity to break away from E.A. They made it very clear to the commanders of E.A that they would officially break away and would not take part in the war (even though it turned out their solar system was one of the major fronts for the E.A). This caused major commotion in each Solar System. The E.A started shitting their pants at the thought that they couldn’t use EYE as one of their major defences. So, plans came to action to invade EYE in hopes of using it, but whenever a carrier went to investigate EYE’s situation, they’d never come back.
‘Course I couldn’t care less about the war at the time. I remember sitting on a bench at a docking station, Juos, orbiting Jupiter. The station was used for trade and supplies, since Jupiter wasn’t very far from Earth, it could get supplies from there, and at the same time made a good distance for anyone entering the solar system to get supplies. I couldn’t remember anything about myself, just that I was sitting there, as enormous amounts of people passed me at every second. I was rather impressed by their diversity, even though E.A seemed to be pretty strict about that, but then again, Home itself was very diverse, I guessed that it was only when someone rejected the Home, that E.A got irritated. I remember seeing, out of all the people, a little boy around the age of seven. He was cute, I must admit, still is too, but what really caught my attention was that he was looking at me. The curiosity was there, and I began to wonder if the brown haired, copper-skinned woman would let him come to me.
“Come Aisling, your father is waiting,” the woman said to the boy as she urged him forward.
No, no! Come towards me!
“But Ma-
“Aisling, let’s go,” she continued, and for some reason my worry grew. Worried that I would never be noticed again. All these people walked by, but this boy was the only one that ever noticed me.
I began to use all the force I could to be noticed. I focused my eyes on the boy until I thought they would shatter, but the boy could do nothing to persuade the woman. I began to feel something like a heart squeezing and I didn’t understand why, but I knew the more the chance grew that the boy wouldn’t stay, the worse it got.
“Terra! Terra! Is that you?” came a voice from the crowd. A woman separated from the mass of people and came toward the woman with the boy. They embraced and began chatting.
This is your chance!
The woman had let go of the boy’s hand and I saw him stare at me with curious eyes. I could feel anxiety, staring at him with sparkling eyes, the light splashing into them. My red ribbon was nice and neat, my skirt and blouse brand new, making me look rather spiffy if I do say so myself. But the kid took his damn time, looking back and forth between his mom and I. He started too bite his lip nervously as he stepped forward…one foot at a time.
He’s cute!
My eyes lit up. (I now wonder how much more they could light up…I mean they were light enough, dude.) Each step was slow, but he eventually made his way towards the bench I was on, nibbling his lip.
My anxiety grew, the tightness continuing in my chest. The boy was in front of me, looking at me with big soft eyes.
“Hi,” he said and bit his lip again before continuing. “My name is Aisling, but you can call me Ai.”
It was a cute name, but thank Home he didn’t ask me for mine, ‘cause I didn’t know it.
There was a sudden silence that flooded over the boy and I, as if instead of the world not noticing only me, he was now not noticed also. But we both noticed one another and I decided from then on that I’d go everywhere he went; no one else.
The boy slowly reached out and gripped my arm gently. The sound of everyone else was still muted, only the boy’s touch, only his awareness of me existed in our space. I continued to stare into his soft eyes, even as he said: “Teddy bear.”
I couldn’t help but be surprised.
What’s a teddy bear?
I figured he probably knew better than me, as I couldn’t even see myself and didn’t even know what I looked like.
Then everything just came back into focus and instead of lots of people walking around there were lots of people running like crazy. People were screaming and sirens were going off as flames fed on everything and everyone. Tongues of red, orange, blue and at times, white flame, licked their prey in one huge gulp.
The boy whimpered and wrapped his arms around me for comfort, but the sight was horrible, chaotic, and indescribable. I even noticed the woman the boy was with, she was the many that hadn’t avoiding burning and she fell to the ground in a heap of flame.
“Aisling…” she mumbled, but it seemed to echo around Ai and I.
I couldn’t help but see the fire as a beautiful thing, but Ai didn’t. His soft eyes saw everything, taking it in, and becoming unclean. He gripped on to me as if I was a lifeline, but I knew what to do. I knew he wouldn’t last long there and luckily someone made that clear for me.
“Hey, kid!” came a rough voice, as a hand grabbed Ai’s shoulder. “Get out of here! Come on, follow me!”
It was hard to hear his voice; sounds reached us from every direction.
~ (missing piece)
Ai’s pace slowed as clanking sounds, ship smells, and people surrounded us in a frenzy of organized panic. The man in front of us gave out orders, encouragement, and led Ai forward, not stopping for anything. Ai didn’t pay attention to our surroundings, often bumping into people, but I could see the ship from my rear view.
It was a very clean ship, with orderly dressed crewmembers; none of them looked unhealthy or dirty. They got around in a neat and orderly fashion, not panicking, but still able to get around quickly. They were probably rushing to stop the fire, I heard talk of an air vent exploding, running through grid A of the station.
Terrorism…? I heard some question as they sped by.
“In here,” I heard the man say, “Just stay here. I’ll be back in a while.”
I saw the man head away; the corridor we were in was suddenly empty and quiet. The man had copper hair and a fair build-he wore the suit of a captain.
I was sat down on a soft bed in a plain room with only the essentials: compartments for personals, and a separate chamber for toilet and shower.
Ai stood still like a statue and clenched his fists. His eyes suddenly began to fill with tears and with my horror he flung himself to the ground and started crying. It was so powerful and painful, making me shiver all over.